WHY THIS BLOG

The postpartum period was such a mystery to me, until I was in the thick of it. In fact, I had never even heard of the fourth trimester until three weeks before my delivery date when it came up in my birth class. I, of course, knew that babies needed lots of care. However, I only ever saw this care in snippets from friends who I would briefly visit during this time. They were always so dreamy and proud, saying they were so in love and happy. 

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It wasn't that they were lying, exactly, it is just that they were conveniently leaving out how insanely intense this period of time is. Or perhaps it is just impossible to communicate. The hormones, the sleep deprivation, and the awesome responsibility of keeping alive this wee one who seems hell bent on self destruction through her helplessness has at times made me feel crazy, inadequate, and deeply tired.

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I don't know how I would do it without my mindfulness practice. So many times I have drawn upon it to regain my composure, or simply accept with compassion those moments where I just have to cry it out. It has helped me enjoy the tiny moments with this tiny babe, the brief private moments of self care, and the connection with my husband. It has also help me weather the stormy moments, of her inconsolable crying, or of my inconsolable crying.

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This blog is essentially documentation of how I have used mindfulness in my life during this postpartum period. I hope that by sharing, I offer some moments of solace and joy to others.

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